逃避中 @ Monday, December 7, 2009
大雨滂沱
击打着我每一寸的肌肤
渗透入我黑色的心,肝,脾,肺
洗掉了污浊
留下了深蓝

我不知如何面对
那些爱我的人
真正爱我的人
除了沉默
还是沉默

经历了那么多
最终发现
如果有选择
我愿意祈求转换我们相遇的时间
想想

还是你对我最好
爱你的瞬间
尽在咫尺
却无尽的遥远

我想触碰的过去
一直都在蒙容中消失
唯一清晰的
却是你的笑脸
那些爱过的曾经
那第一次的萌动

时间过了
散了
爱情却越来越浓了
对你的思念也越来越浓

我不知道我回味的是什么
可是
我总在不停的回味
爱恨交杂
像永远也结不开的线
越结越乱

越想逃避

选择面对是种错
错在伤害了朋友的感觉
选择承担是种错
错在伤害了朋友的感觉
选择逃避是种错
错在了欺骗朋友的感觉

于是
我选择了欺骗
选择了逃避

请原谅胆小鬼
请忘记胆小鬼
谢谢.

人生有很多事情值得后悔
但是
没有时间
唯一能反省的是
怎么会认识不该认识的人
做不该做的事

有什么
像疯子那样笑笑
像疯子那样健忘
像疯子那样不顾一切

最后
做疯子去解决一切
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Discovery Center @ Thursday, December 3, 2009
Here we are~

Learning how to make 中国结(吉祥结)


I now still dun know the last step. -.-!





Learning how to cut "春".



Mine( Pink)
Nice?
Learning how to write our surname in 甲古文.










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2 photos of me (carrot) @
These are the two photos of me. Haha. With carrot. Lol =)
Taken on May or June. I cant really rmb. Lol.
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The decision @ Tuesday, December 1, 2009
This hard decision comes easy. I dun know what had happened to me. Maybe there is always turning points in life.

I decided to quit My CCA (NRA dance). I know this may make you feel shocked. I used to be a dance freak, cca freak, and hard working girl in my studies. But everything changed. CCA, dance, and ChS studies are not becoming my main focus in life. I am thinking there is really more things I can do and more achievements I can get in other areas. Yes. Keep my aims as secrets first. =)

I really hope everyone in my life can offer me a helping hand when I am in need. Give me your shoulders if I failed and crying. Sometimes I really glad that I have many good frens in my life.
Cheers. I won't die before 60. Haha. That means at least we still have 40 years to go with you guys. =)
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性格决定命运 @
我爸爸曾经告诉我,他到了40岁,真的相信了大家所说的:一个人的性格决定了一个人的命运.

确实.我举双手双脚同意.当然,家庭背景,遭遇等等也会改变一个人的一生.但是,我觉得性格还是最重要的.因为那是能被改变,或者说,能改变一切的内在因素.我们不能左右外在,那么,我们只能掌控内在.

我觉得悲剧往往是由性格产生的.

默默无闻的性格,一辈子只能躲在角落,埋头苦干,慢慢的以经验换取更多的酬劳.
争分吃醋的性格,一辈子都在与人格斗,你争我抢,终日想着算计他人而不能安宁.
努力进取的性格,一辈子向上攀爬奋斗,永不知足,日夜劳累不堪还是想继续奋斗.
贪图享乐的性格,一辈子都在掉儿啷当,无所作为,不顾明天死活也要花今日钱财.
小心谨慎的性格,一辈子停不了堤防人,东张西望,做什么事情都担心是否行得通.

性格真的决定一生的命运,但是,没有人的性格是完美的,就如同没有人是完美的.我们看不见自己的性格,因为性格本身就是抽象和不符实体的东西.性格能从表现,成就才能看出.就因如次,我认为,要改变一个人的一生(性格),就该设立应有的目标,从而改变性格.
好比说,我要天天过的开开心心,那么,我该以开开心心为目标,然后,想着,我要怎么看待一件原来让人觉得非常愤怒或者忧伤的事情成为一件不那么能举动心情的因素.
说的再明白点吧, 失去了一位至亲.我们都会难过.

A: 他是我最重要的人,没有他我活不了了.
B: 人死了,就像风飘过.走了,散了,自然现象.
相比之下,B就会更快比A过的开心,释怀.

所以,我在想,我改变成一个怎样的人?我想我周围的人变成怎样的人?=(
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Had alot of fun. @ Monday, November 30, 2009
Actually lately a lot of outings with lenus but almost everytime we forgot to bring camera. Haha.
I rmb single moments with him. Smile dear.. =)
Movie 2012
Ikea
.....
and many more...
My life is really simple now. Sch, food, Internet, Bed.
Anyway, even with the photos, I won't publish here, you guys who read my blog often will know my style. Lol. =D
I think I spent a lot time on playing these days, yeah, that's y why what my father said on the phone last time really gave me a hit. He said:" Why you spent so much time on earning money and teaching tuition. I dun want you to be like this. Now should still be the time for study. Dun play too much and dun really care about money, no need to worry for that."
Yeah. True. I did not pay attention to my sch and this makes me feel guilty. I am a student and I dun know what the core is the lecturers are teaching for this half semester.=.=!
Sadly, I dun like any of the modules in semester and this makes me lost interest in learning. You know that I fell asleep during the class today!!!
Gosh. I rmb last time I fell asleep was when I was having maths lesson when I was still in Sec 4. That time is overtired cos "O" level is coming. But now? Cos I was playing game until 3 am last nite. Hais.真是不应该. =(
My 4 books for this semester is new, my ppt is unread, my mind is blank. =(
Sad.
Christmas holiday is coming. Haha. So tests coming soon too. Hope I dun forget the studies again. =D
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Mula with my girl frens. @
It is really a nice hang out last Friday with my dear girl frens. Xiao qing, lidya and gerene.
We went to walk around the Bugis area and caught movie <>. The ending quite different from the cartoon version and there is a bit change in the storyline.
I like the movie! Yea. haha. I thought lidya enjoyed it too as she sat beside me? =X lOl
Why? Cos I can say smth to turn simple thing into a laugh. Haha.
Sadly, I did not take the photo with gerene. I am damn ugly in the pic below. Haha. Nvm. Maybe this is true me. =X
Then lidya left earlier as she need to meet up her bf and bowling frens for steamboat. Then I brought xiaoqing and gerene to my favour "jin kuai zi"(金筷子) for steamboat too. Haha. Like what I said, the food there is always nice for me. =D

Oh well. I like xiaoqing's hair. Lol
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